FallingAngel22

Sarah Kay Stokes

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This too shall pass by FallingAngel22, literature

Subtlety by FallingAngel22, literature

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Subtlety

It was subtle the way she changed Her chin stayed tucked down, her voice, quieter The joy didn't come out as much It stayed behind her eyes Watching Waiting Hiding It was subtle, the way she f a d e d Into larger clothes , smaller spaces Her being apologizing for being too loud - daring to take up space She moulded to the furniture The W A L LS The r o o m Face and personality Malleable and fake Made Just for you , For the critic that hid there too In the subtle ways In jokes, faces In worries expressed indirectly

Apologies by FallingAngel22, literature

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Apologies

There are so many "I'm sorry"s to give you To lay at your feet one after one A convoluted path to follow To the heartbreak sure to come bastardized rose petals, Carved from the uncertainty of our tomorrow There are so many moments Of laughter and light Cherished memories to hold on tight As the I'm sorry's overwhelm our senses and our feeling bleed out into the night There are so many I'm sorry's to give And yet none of them come out right

Goddess by FallingAngel22, literature

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Goddess

I am the Goddess. I am the woman who carries the world The worries and joys and sorrows I’m the one Who bathes in the moonlight Unable to sleep Captivated by the beauty of stars as they dance in the sky I am the woman who helps others weep The tears that water their souls I am the woman who stands up tall So that others feel safe to fall I am the woman who dances alone To sound of the autumn wind Through fires and leaves and swims in the sea The Mother always protecting me I am the woman who stands up high Arms open to the world; Closing my eyes to fly I am the woman who sees the pain Who does my best to make it right again I am

Mirror Maze by FallingAngel22, literature

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Mirror Maze

I watch myself above me Confused, wondering if there's a mirror that for some reason I can't see... Why is that me, when I'm here And over there And there And around me everywhere Spread too thin across planes of existence I barely step in anymore Preferring to watch the reflection .... Lost In a mirrored maze unsure of which is up or down or me or fake or left or right, right or wrong --Walk the path with my eyes closed--- So I can feel instead of see As I take my heart out from where it had been hid and let it lead Because eyes can be blinded by too many little things

Almost Reality by FallingAngel22, literature

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Almost Reality

I wasn't prepared when I opened the door to find a handsome man standing on my porch, looking lost beneath his confident exterior. His fiery hair was styled in a military cut, his clothes fit well across broad shoulders and his body fell into the well rehearsed position of waiting. It took a moment, and then it all rushed back. The drunken hook up at a party, the consequent fling, the tears I'd kept hidden as he walked away.. Out of my life, and on with his own. We'd been children then, barely over eighteen.. Lost in a craze of booze and exploration. Through mutual contacts I'd heard long ago that he continued that trend once training was o

Inner Voices make a Circus by FallingAngel22, literature

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Inner Voices make a Circus

Trapped in the Darkness within my mind Running in circles the blind lead the Blind i'm a traveling circus a freak show on legs consumed by the fire around the Ring Running down alleys a Maze of thoughts my brain is a Trap fueled by the pain that I've caused sting of the whip Jeer of the crowd when it's all that i hear doesn't matter the sound unable to See past what I

Scars by FallingAngel22, literature

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Scars

Because our scars are what make us human As we travel 'bout the world Leaving traces of ourselves Where later they'll be found Memories on the river banks songs from the stars Little bruises on our hearts We stop to look around At the Scars that are the patches We've sewn onto skin Holding us together As we go over it again For the beauty's in the pain We've come to understand But when the day is at an end Beauty comes from our own hand Goodbyes and heartaches lies and deceit We'll look back later To figure out what to think More beautiful for having been broken Even if the scars don't show Stronger now after the battle Tales of which you'l

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This too shall pass by FallingAngel22, literature

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Apologies by FallingAngel22, literature

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Apologies

Goddess by FallingAngel22, literature

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Goddess

Mirror Maze by FallingAngel22, literature

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Almost Reality by FallingAngel22, literature

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Almost Reality

Inner Voices make a Circus by FallingAngel22, literature

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Inner Voices make a Circus

Scars by FallingAngel22, literature

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Scars

The Children Part 3 by FallingAngel22, literature

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state of affairs by dietcocaine, literature

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state of affairs

i don't let myself think about her -- that's how i get by. (guilt can only creep in if you forget to shove a towel under the crack in the door but i'm losing sleep and smoking too many cigarettes, until my lungs won't expand any more) i thought i'd seen enough blood to last a lifetime but i can't stop biting at my lips until they bleed, tearing off scabs to see if i'm still red inside. (years ago, she and i made a pact to always be blood sisters.) it's her second trimester now: i've come to understand that you will never leave her for me because she will give you what i could not. i've learned this of myself: i am not a good person.

castigation by dietcocaine, literature

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castigation

i prayed until my lips went numb, scratched my skin until it bled but still i have no answers and i'm terrified, darling, terrified - you quit me, left me standing on the precipice with a cherry pit for a heart and a bowling ball in my stomach - (it has a gravitational pull all its own). you hung me, left me strung out on the clothesline to dry, like yesterday's laundry - and the crows settled 'twixt my bones to peck out a heartbeat to replace the one I could no longer bear.

alcoholics anonymous by dietcocaine, literature

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alcoholics anonymous

I swore that I would never fall prey to your thirty-pack-a-day habit, which was easy when I learned that even the smell of beer could turn my stomach, but no one warned me about the dark allure of Jack or Patrón, or the sweet and easy sips of wine coolers with dinner (and afterward, late into the night). I know that I am my father's daughter when the whiskey starts to taste too good and one drink turns into four or five or seven. I lose feeling in my cheeks, and then my knees; when I leave the bar at last call, my foot is too heavy on the gas pedal and the lines on the road sway like the sea.

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About FallingAngel22

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Artist // Hobbyist // Literature

United States
Deviant for 13 years
She / Her

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I'm me. Confused as to who that means and where I'm headed. I'm in college, I love it. I love learning, and I love teaching, and I love kids... but I don't love the closed minded people who so often raise them. I love women, sometimes I like men. Does it matter, really?
"When I was a little girl they said love's a pearl and you're lucky if you find it. But now I'm told I've got to hide it..."
I feel broken, like I've fallen too far from any light. It's who I am. I'm here to hold other people up, to teach, to protect. It will all be okay.
There is no wrong. No darkness. Only two sides of the light.

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Three Doors Down is deffinatly the top of my lift. shortly followed by P!nk and bands such as crossfade and Breaking Benjamin

Favourite Books

The Special Agent Pendergast novels are my favorite, they're epic as only good books can be. I'm also helplessly addicted to Harry Potter, and everything that consists of.

Favourite Writers

Douglas Preston and Lincolon Child

Favourite Games

Scrabble, but I can't spell worth beans...

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FallingAngel22

Sep 11, 2014

Life

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I've been almost entirely absent from here for a while, and I can't begin to promise that that will change in the near future. Any poetry I've written lately is too horrible to see the light of day, let alone the green forum of DA, but I will try to upload some pieces soon. I'm counting down the weeks until I get to celebrate my anniversary with an amazing man who has captured my heart  in all of the good ways. He's kind,and compassionate. He laughs at my poorly told jokes and supports my passions and encourages me when I want to go after my dreams even when I didn't believe in myself. He has become my shelter and my rock faster than I thou

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FallingAngel22

Jan 30, 2014

Sooo....

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For the first time ever, I'm faced with the question of what to do for a guy on Valentines day.... Help?

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FallingAngel22

Jan 9, 2014

I'm excited :D

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Well, I officially have a crush. A real life, honest-to-goodness crush on a man who is physically, mentally and emotionally available, stable in his life and shares similar interests to me. And he's cute, it's a bonus :) and we've had two dates, with a third being planned. It's been a while since someone made me smile this much